Is me

Is me

I wanted to be liked so much
an impulse was to change exterior things

it's my clothes
then they'd like me

it's my possessions
then they'd like me

it's my laugh
then they'd like me

all to realize
the one losing in every scenario
is me.

Embarrassment

Embarrassment 

I need to get over
that sense of embarrassment
from myself
in order to walk
without a hunched back
smile showing my teeth
make eye contact
feel alive!

Sometimes I get so sad

Sometimes I get so sad

Sometimes I get so sad
I don't even know what to do with myself
I can't even cry
for even that's so brave.

Buddy

Buddy

I just want a friend
a true friend that I can do
everything with
say anything to
be anything by
and still be loved.

Confidence

Confidence

I wish I had confidence
as so many people do

confidence to see me
separate from who I am
and to accept both.

nervous

nervous

okay i'm nervous
but isn't everyone at one point in their life
and if they aren't don't they get a bit scared
of the end?

Newton's second law

Newton's second law

Why make music?
for it evaporates into the air
why spend a life dedicated to
what just becomes heat in a millisecond?

because life is more than just what we
can capture with statistics

it's day to day
moment to moment
look to look

it's in the air
just listen.

I seek hidden meaning

I seek hidden meaning

I seek hidden meaning
in everything
it could just be a look
but it took a symphony.

I keep myself closed off

I keep myself closed off

I keep myself closed off
from all that could happen to me
and then I complain when I'm
sitting there waiting for thee.

My insecurities run me

My insecurities run me

My insecurities run me

I wake up much too late
I drink too much caffeine

I go on health crazes
then two weeks go by of nothing

I want to be perfect
but I don't do anything to
make myself that way

I sleep with a night light on
I'm afraid of things that can't hurt me

Depressed in a corner
self conscious in a mirror

I appear to be this hardworking person
and maybe I am
but I always feel like I'm cheating myself
only to run myself down sick from overwork

But maybe my biggest insecurity
is that I'm worth more than I give myself credit

Let's be great together

Let's be great together

I'm so tired of
being surrounded by
mediocre moods

let's be great!
in fact
let's be great together.

Reality check

Reality check

It's funny when you think
everyone
is exactly like you

everyone shares your motivations
your dreams
your passions

then the mirror is pulled from in front of you
and you see the reality.

I feel more confident each day

I feel more confident each day

I went through a phase

where even saying my name
felt foreign
felt awkward

but who cares

who really cares

let's just be who we are

nobody is worth that anxiety

there are more important things to solve.

The light shines on

The light shines on

Let us be warriors

let us shine on

let us be who we are
who we're meant to be

no one can stop us

the light shines on.

Footprint

Footprint

Don't you just wish

that you could fulfill your childhood dreams?

whether it was to be an
astronaut
ballerina
teacher
firefighter
doctor

everything is just one way to look at
changing the world
and leaving your footprint on mankind.

The moment I feel free

The moment I feel free

The moment I feel free
is when I am all alone
unscheduled
nowhere to be
content in myself
singing at the top of my lungs
a melody and dancing along
I don't care how I look
how I sound
how I present myself
because in that moment of freedom
everything I do is accepted
happy joyful real
and no one can tell me otherwise.

It's beautiful

It's beautiful

It's beautiful

if you can just take a second

and be grateful for everything
be overwhelmed by gratitude
in all that is there

I am living!
I am breathing!
I am walking!
I have a family!
I have education!
I have food!
I have shelter!
I have warmth!
I have music!

and grateful for even the bad things

Failure helped me find a new path!
Frustration helped me rethink my ways!
Stress helped my schedule my day!
Bad friends made me find new ones!
Bad days lead me here!

and oh, what a relief!
to just feel grateful
and nothing else.

When you wish

When you wish

If I had to forecast
that I would be here
this very second
minute
hour
day
week
month
year
place in my life

I would have dreamed

but not truly believed
that yes
a wish activated by work
became a reality.

So what

So what

So what

you aren't from the same place
don't share the same taste
don't share the same face

you share the same dreams
share the same moon beams
share the same smile that gleams

and it's beautiful.

Sharing

Sharing

I can't stand those people

that think that sharing their
candle
with others is going to
diminish
their own flame

why you can light a whole room up!

for once we can all actually see

it's not about us
it's about us. 

People will accept you

People will accept you

I feel like there are
in fact
people that will accept
you
for who you are

but it takes a lot of people
pushing you away
further and further
into that shell
into that cocoon

that sometimes the sun can't shine
on the heroes
the right people

because everything
everyone

looks dark from your perspective.

Advice

Advice

You know

the best words of advice

I have gotten in a
long
time

have been that you
don't
need to wait
for permission

to be who you want to be

start today
start now
start this instant

you were born to be great
don't wait
for someone to come along

and push that out of you

be great

get it
got it
over.

I await that day

I await that day

I await that day

where I don't feel
lame
or awkward
or shy
or out of place

where I don't look
lonely
or scared
or apathetic
or lost

where I don't seem
timid
or quiet
or fragile
or easy to break

but why can't that day be today?

Social skills

Social skills

I think what I need to work on
isn't social skills

I know how to meet people
I know how to carry a conversation
I know how to be polite

what I need to work on is
myself
how to listen to myself
how to talk with myself
how to accept myself

so when I turn to others
I can hear what they're saying
above the sounds of self doubt.

Lonely in a crowd

Lonely in a crowd

I always want to say
that that moody feeling
is loneliness

but I know that's untrue

for I can feel even more lonely
surrounded by people.

Take one look

Take one look

Take one look around you
I bet you didn't notice that
or that
or
that
and if you spin around again
why
everything looks so different
did you realize that
did you see that
did you notice that
it's always been there
but you can't see it until
you place yourself
there.

Trust me

Trust me

Trust me.

I don't
n
e
e
d
permission
to
be
myself

and

neither
should
y
o
u

Focus on the positive

Focus on the positive 

What's the worst thing
that can happen
when we all focus on the
positive?
We didn't get the job
and we smiled too much?

Influences

Influences

It's funny how
we can be influenced
to the point of changing our lives
over someone
we've never met
and maybe never will meet
it seems like we're all family.

Positivity

Positivity 

I think we need to dwell
in positivity
life isn't rooted in darkness
the sun is always there
clouds pass.

Independent

Independent 

How can I be independent
when everything I do
is set to someone else's calendar,
schedule, agenda?